12/05/2013 Sunny

Dear Journal,

It's been quite some times I do not write to you. I'm so sorry about that as I'm very busy working recently, from 8am-8pm. Sometimes, I  question myself, "Is this kind of life that I want?" Anyway, you have to lost something in order to get something. I sincerely hope that that something is really the thing that I want the most. No regret after all. Still, I'll try my best to find enjoyment in my career. Today is Mother's Day, and I feel shy to say "Mom, I love you!. Sorry for not having Mother's Day celebration in this year but then, we still have the Thai trip, fully sponsored by me." Haha! This seems like I want to find an excuse to save money for myself.

Journal, sometimes  it makes me think that I'm stingy here because all my staff have treated me meal but I haven't treat them back yet. I feel bad about myself. Anyway, since the Thai trip is just around the corner, so this time I'll treat them back big. Naraya, Thai food, or anything to treat the girls here but for Hang Wee, maybe need to reconsider hard because it's always the hardest to buy souvenirs for guy with the landmark of that place visited. 

Journal, thanks for listening to me bluffing around. It cheers up my day. Thank you!

Love,

Lim kek Chuong

23/4/2013 Sunny

Dear Journal,

Sorry, I did not write to you yesterday as I was really busy until I had no time to rest properly. Somehow, I ask myself, "Do I make a right choice?" Seems like if I choose wealth, I'll lose many things. I feel like I'm somehow out of touch with my friends whether my good ex-colleagues or secondary school friends. Sometimes I imagine if I do not take this offer, what my life will be now in Daro and Sibu. Maybe I'm now in Sibu attending courses, meeting friends from other parts in Sarawak, or enjoying seafood in Daro. Hmm... I miss my previous life but I have to move forward since I've already made it herre. Wish me luck, Journal!



Sincerely,
Lim Kek Chuong

21/4/2013 Sunny

Dear Journal,

Today I finally do some works for the soon to be opened PMG pharmacy (At least help some). I’m still doubtful about my ability to manage the pharmacy. However, I’ll try my very best to learn to manage. And now, I need to refresh my knowledge about the commonly used medication in the community pharmacy. Otherwise, I’ll get myself embarrassed in front of the customers and my staffs. I may need to stick the “profit first” into my own mind or even my heart but, still, I need to have some basic humanity consideration in doing business so that I won’t lose myself and let’s hope that this can help to maintain the business.

Love,

Lim Kek Chuong 

19/4/2013 Sunny

Dear Journal,

Today I feel like I am always an unlucky person. The brand new kettle that I bought previously is leaking. Why every unlucky stuffs seem to drop on me every time? From the time I started to work in government hospital as a pharmacist, I did not save much money for my own. Every time I starts to have little money, it will flow out like the tap water, fast and endlessly. The summary of my money flowed to: My watch was out of order, my (that time) girlfriend asked me to pay for her car repair fee due to accident, I needed to change the mattress for my bed, I needed to buy a car which was second hand, Later my second hand car was out of order and I needed to spend 4k for the repair fee, My so-called stepfather passed away and it took quite as sum of money to settle his funeral and ritual after funeral. On and off my car tyres were leaking and I needed to change them, this went the same to my car itself. All These occurred during the first year of my work.

To my dismay, I was destined transfer to belaga but thank god, I managed to switch to daro. The days in daro were fun and I started to have my own savings but then my car was in a big sick again. Gosh, that was dangerous and I spent a sum of money again to buy a new car. Savings were gone and now there was an opportunity for me to work in private. I give it a try but this seems not going well too. Many obstacles that delay my work. From the first time I decided to buy electrical appliances and electronic camera, they have their problems too. And I needed to spend a RM 220 for repairing my brand new camera. Shit! And now my kettles did not want to cooperate with me.

Journal, I hope that this is the last unfortunate event happen to me. I'm not asking luck to give me wealth but I'm asking luck to keep everything good and smooth and need not to waste unnecessary money and energy again. Hopefully God can guide me through this.

Cheers,

Lim Kek chuong

18/04/2013 Rainy

Dear Journal,

It’s kind of lonely and exhausting when you are at the turning point of life. I feel like I’ve lost my confidence, my friends, or my passions towards my profession. Why?? Is it because of changing from the previous stable condition where I can have lots of friends and funs and be a king to do whatever I want?? Oh… I miss my life at Daro there. Sigh, seems like it’s not as exciting as I have imagined before about my future money-making works! But, what to do?? Go on with life, LKC! Being at the turning point of life is not easy. For better or worse, you still need to lift up your head to live and laugh till the end.

I’m so lucky to have my dad at my side for today to help me out. If I do it all alone, I’ll sure be deadly exhausted. Thank you, daddy!

Today is really a bad day. Everything is not going smoothly. Let’s hope for a better tomorrow, Journal.

Regards,

Lim Kek Chuong